I don’t remember our first meeting
Not because you were weird or just some random person
But simply because I wasn’t in the mood
For making new friends or connections.
You noticed me and the fact I didn’t notice you
Gave u the audacity to come closer to me
Subtly, you made your way into my life
And now we share good memories.
You had a few things I looked for in a friend
That prayerful side to always push me forward
That funny side to always keep me smiling
That crazy side to remind me to live fully.
We had a great friendship, I loved it
Till you decided to confide in me
One of your deepest secrets, why? Good question
But I simply listened with great attention.
I saw you almost drowning, breaking, giving in
To the thoughts, the wants, the feelings
I couldn’t stand the sight of you giving up
So I tried saving you…and I failed.
Now I’m hurt, deeply and I cried
Because you didn’t listen, you didn’t wait, you didn’t try
I break my mind just trying to understand why
And now I just stare, wondering if I was ever useful.
Did you think of how I’ll feel?
If it’ll mean a thing to me?
If I deserved that? If I wanted that?
I guess this is what they call “friendship pain”.
I can’t undo what’s been done
It’s your life and you made your choice
I just wish I didn’t know what I know now
Cuz I’m left with this feeling, this burden
I thought I could convince or even help you
I guess I’m gonna stick to the raw truth
It was all in my head.